I know you’re hurting right now because you don’t understand why I’ve fallen out of love with your dad and all you want is to see us both happy together, but I have tried for years to keep this relationship together for you, and it is now time for me do what I should have done a long time ago. Your dad is an amazing person, he is very kind and caring and has a huge heart that makes him love a little too much sometimes. In love you should always be fair and want to see the other person happy even if it means you are not as happy with some of their decisions. Love is about letting people be themselves and giving them the freedom to grow and express who they are. Unfortunately daddy didn’t realize this and as much as I tried to help him learn this he never truly understood how to accept me for who I was. I felt very controlled and suffocated in my relationship with him and I got to the point where I couldn’t handle it anymore and fell out of love. I have never told you this but when I was little, I saw my dad be very controlling with my mom too and I was very sad to see my mom just deal with it. She never left him but was very unhappy for a long time. That was not a healthy environment for us kids to grow up in. They fought often and never showed affection to each other which I never understood. I promised myself that I would never be in that situation or let my kids grow up seeing their parents not love each other. I don’t want to set that example of love for you. I want you to grow up to only have healthy relationships where you both love each other in a way that is free and without guilt, anger or control. Your dad still doesn’t quite understand why I lost love for him because I suppressed these feelings for a long time hoping that eventually they would make an appearance and everything would be ok. I love your dad as a best friend and that will never go away. Some of my best moments were spent with him, but to keep a healthy marriage going, it just isn’t enough anymore. I’m so sorry to put you all through this right now but I know things will get better and you will always have us both right here for you when you need us. That will never change. You and Emilio will always be the most important thing in our lives. I just hope that you don’t grow up resenting me for my decision. I hope I can talk to you about this openly when you are ready to listen and accept what I have to say. I love you with all my heart and I know we are all going to be ok.
Love always,
Mommy ❤
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